One pink day….

What is love? As far as i can tell, it is passion, admiration and respect. If you have two, you have enough. If you have all three, you don’t have to die to go to heave.  -William Wharton

fauxillusionAlright, so even girls like me have their pink days. If you are more a tomboy than a girly-girl you know what am talking about. Those days where even you can’t help but try and analyze yourself, and the relationships you’ve had thus far. Today that is my day. Am almost thirty, and am SHOCKED to learn that all of those women whom i made fun of because they were approaching the big 30…were not so silly but genuinely at a roadblock. See, i have always been more mature for my age so turning 30 to me meant just another number or decade when i was 21. Now i can feel the changes. Not like a lightbulb went on or anything, but slow changes letting me know am leaving my old self behind.

Is that a bad thing? Am not really sure, but i know that i want to become a better person somehow. Not like i want to save the world or anything, but i want to make changes that will guide me in a better path than what i have walked so far. The problem is that you cannot make changes unless you look and i mean REALLY look at yourself honestly. Do you know how scary that is? Because while we can try not to notice certain things about ourselves that some people may feel are wrong behavior. When you honestly and truly look at yourself, you know it may not be wrong in the same way those people say, but they are certainly not helping you be truly happy. 

Relationships for instance, those messy little things or not so messy if you indulge in the no-strings-attached affairs. Those seem to be the biggest hurdles to encounter, because as humans we make many more mistakes there than in any other area. Yes you can make mistakes where family is concerned, but compared to intimate or casual relationships it’s almost nothing. You have to look at all those times you slept with someone, and try to figure out if you slept with the person for the right reasons…because let me tell you am finding out sometimes you don’t. Not so bad that i have to go to therapy, or at least not yet, but those times where i just wanted to feel good and used sex as the mean. Rather than use sex for that purpose and not for the right intention, like pleasure my partner and myself, i tried to substitute loneliness. And wow wasn’t that a shocker in and of itself? Me, who prides herself on being sexual just because i enjoyed it. Who would dislike anyone for saying i was a slut by sleeping with a guy on the first date….not that i think they are rigth, but i need take some time and at least think about why i want to sleep with them. Make sure it’s more than just finding them attractive and be compatible in more than personality.

While once upon a time in college shagging someone just because you were horny and then finding someone else  a week later max…at least in my book was acceptable. But if i truly want to find a satisfying relationship or “the right” man, then i need to start looking at my partner with more than just lust. I have never been blind to think that knights really do exist, or cynical enough not to think gentlemen do not. So kissing frogs should have a limitation.

So here is what i have found so far–Mind you this doesn’t mean the same for everyone.

  • Comfortable is good in a relationship, as long as there is attraction between the parties.
  • Sex is good for pleasure, but not as substitute.
  • Passion can wear off when you are with the wrong partner. It can become more subtle once a relationship is established.
  • As long as there is frienship, passion is a wondeful thing to have in an intimate relationship.
  • You are no longer a teenager so of course your body will change, doesn’t mean you need to hate it for it.
  • If you really want to make changes then start, don’t wait for the right moment.
  • Men who are not attentive to your intimate needs or just try to fulfill their needs, do not respect your body.
  • If someone insulted you, do not hate them. Know they were wrong but don’t carry the burden of hate, it only dims your happiness. Simply let them know and distance yourself from such negative people.
  • Family can be overbearing, but they are blood anyway, so if the problems are small be upfront about how you feel. You will be amazed at how receptive they can be. Of course there are those black sheeps in the family that can make you miserable for it, those you should just ignore….believe me, they will be miserable when you do and eventually learn their lesson.
  • Relationships are not really complicated, but rather we make them complicated when we blind ourselves from looking at the truth right in front of our eyes.
  • In a relationship one person is not the only one to blame. Both parties are, even if the other person’s mistake was to have pick the other person.

Now you are probably thinking you have read the books or columns on these issues. That these lessons i have learned just now i should have known a long time ago, and perhaps you are right but when you want to allude yourself things just seem to pass you by. Afterall more often then not it’s about someone else, not really you who is being analyzed. So i step off my soap box for now, i think i’ll take some wine and let my brain rest for today. 


Let’s talk about series

wolfpackLately i have been occupied with book series. Some i have read throughout the years but others are new finds. Lets start with an author whose work is in my automatic buy. Which means i like these author’ work so much that i will buy any books they write, just to see if i like it regardless of the genre. I must say i do not have many in my list since i believe that liking the author’s work and loving it are very different.

I hope by now many of you know about Christine Feehan and if you don’t then i suggest you check your local library or bookstore and start reading her books. She is one of those author’s whose work i have known for a while and deeply enjoy. She has so far about 4 series: Dark Carpathians, Drake Sisters, Ghost Walkers and recently a Leopard series.

“You are my lifemate. I claim you as my lifemate. I belong to you. I offer my life for you. I give you my protection. I give you my allegiance. I give you my heart. I give you my soul. I give you my body. I take into my keeping the same that is yours. You life will be cherished by me for all my time. Your life will be place above my own for all time. You are my lifemate. You are bound to me for all eternity. You are always in my care.”

Today it’s about her Carpathians and am very proud to say i have read and re-read all 19 books. I thoroughly enjoyed each and every one so far and fell in love with the characters for many different reasons. The Carpathians are relatively vampires, who are also hunters of  “rogue” vampires. From someone who has read many series on the vampire genre i can attest it’s like no other. For example,  they can shapeshift to different animals. I have had some problems with stories on vampires where the taking of blood resulted on the person’s death. Another thing that really bothers me these days is a vampire who has no soul, therefore no reflection on the mirror. As a friend mentioned once “there is something freaky about someone having a HEA when they have no soul”.

For someone who gags at the mention of cutsey and the overly romantic in a story, am quite the sucker for soulmates. Give the characters a reason to find the person that will complete them and i will at least want to read the blurb on the book. This story has Lifemates and each couple is different and similar in many ways, which will make you hate or love the characters for it. So far of the males my favorite is Gregory and MaryAnne as a lifemate. There is nothing better for me than an Alpha male who knows just the right amount of controlling and that is not afraid to show love and respect to their other half. MaryAnne….well she is a truly fashionista and as tomboyish as i am, i still love clothes and SHOES, even if am the only one who thinks they look good.

There are few authors these days who include discreet-intimacy, as i like to call it, that i still read. It’s not that i want heavy sexual scenes everywhere in a book, but am no longer a teenager i feel i can take the crass words and welcome the explicit intimacy. I enjoyed how Christine delivered these scenes, not being explicit but enough for everyone to know exactly where and how things were getting done. Something that other discreet-intimacy writers make you wonder how the characters went from kissing, to being sweaty and out of breath the next sentence. It’s almost like they want to gloss over the fact the people actually do have sex…..ROFL 

My favorite book from the series seems to be the latest one, Dark Curse. Probably because we finally get to see the Carpathians as a community, and see the light at the end of the tunnel for some of the problems they have experienced thus far. If like me, you have been checking her website to know what the next book will be about, then you must know why it’s a fantastic story. For the poor souls that do not, it’s about two before mention characters that have intrigued us so much we just cannot seem to wait to learn their story from their perspectives.  I have my fingers cross that the story after would be for either Zacarias or Dominic, they are just too close to turning “rogue” so i want to see them paired to a lifemate. These days in her yahoo group we seem to be trying to figure out which of the Carpathians still left will match with whom, i hope once you start reading her books you will join on the fun.

You may find more about Christine Feehan and her Dark Series in her website:

Hello world!

Wow i finally got in the boat with everyone else, so i guess am Blogging….ROFL

Check my blog starting tomorrow to read about the current books, movies, news and even porn that i have encountered so far. I will be giving a fair review on just about everything that catches my interest. No real drama here, unless we are talking about tv shows and such.


Yes am finally getting around to working on this blog….hehe.
You will notice am quite a complex person and i hope no one gets offended by my opinions but since is MY blog, i will be quite blunt. Since am fluent in a few languages and i have watched way too much television and such that i can get by without a problem here are my obsessions…..

Anime: has to be Japanese, although a few minor exceptions. I personally hate any dub work because in my opinion you do not grasp the full meaning. I tend to watch anime based on my mood at that moment which means the genre is quite important.
Although am a GIRL/WOMAN i do love to watch Yaoi. For those who do not know Yaoi means boys love or as i like to call it, good looking boys with hot boys. Now just to make you even more confused i also love to watch Yuri. Nope, am not a lesbian but boy do i enjoy it…hehe.
Dramas/Movies: Japanese, Korean, Taiwanese, some Chinese, some American, Spanish soaps of course and a few Italians.
Music: Pop, as long as the songs have some meanings and not just 1 hit wonder. Rock, depending on the mood can go from classic to hard rock. R&B and Reggaetton, just because.
Mangas: Rarely buy it so for me to look for it and read it online has to be desperate mode and really good, but mostly Yaoi.

In case you are wondering why am explaining this….
I will give you my review on all of the things i have watched because i feel is just fair for those like me who wanted to know before hand but never did until it was too late or i wanted to slap my face because i waited, that was unless i found the reviews and was full of spoilers.